Attempted to go back to work yesterday, made it about three hours. Felt so crummy I got appointment with doctor same day. She's extended my time off from work by an additional two weeks. Said I might be running more 8-12 weeks worth of recuperation time necessary to feel like a human again.
Now she's also ordered additional tests and another follow-up visit. And I'm positive this has to do with my AGGRESSIVE attitude when I saw her this second time. I didn't allow any dismissiveness & I went in with the right attitude: I'm an adult woman who has had major, unexpected abdominal surgery, lost several pounds from an already small frame, has few reserves to fall back on and is needing to feel well in order to return to work and life. I need answers about why I still feel so fatigued, get winded and am in such pain--now at the start of my seventh week of recovery. I get that it was half a hysterectomy--fine. But I'm used to being healthy as a horse, stronger than anyone thinks I'd be, self-sufficient, in control--healthy in other words, and to be more precise--myself. I want myself back, please.
I've got a sore throat and am fending off a low level cold too. This probably contributed to wanting to keep me isolated at home, rather than return me to work. I'm sure she wants the bulk of my energy to go toward getting well and recuperating, not frittering away on additional bugs and environmental stress.
Funny what a little mis-treatment and resulting anger can do to give one the necessary kick in the pants to 'man-up' and sort it out.
I swear, the longer I spend interacting with doctors, the more I think surgeons are just the mechanics of the medical world. They like to tinker under the hood--regardless of the rest of the car's condition. If they can fix a hose or whatever, their job's done. There's a huge difference between those who enter the medical world to 'do good' and those who enter to 'fix people.' I'm relieved I got better service the second time around, relieved I advocated strongly for myself and really looking forward to being healthy again so I can get off this ride.