In an effort to follow my own advice, I'm writing a 'check-in' letter to myself. So that 6 months from now, I can 'check-in', re-read this letter and hold myself accountable to the things I hope to accomplish--listed here. Not just a check-list of things to do, but also of deeper things that I need to change. That I have needed to change.
And hello to you too.
1. Let's get happier.
2. quit your shitty job.
3. discover what the mysterious small, brown streaks are on all your white clothes when they come out of the washer/dryer.
4. start an Amazon business account
5. start an Ebay business account
6. start a USPS business account for mailing needs
7. get your girlfriend to move in
8. wash the dogs every couple weeks
9. pull up all the crab-grass in the front yard
10. get a realator to come out and tell you what needs to be done to get this house on the market
11. start exercising
12. eat better. eat at all. scotch and pop-corn aren't dinner.
13. grocery shop and cook more
14. stop being so afraid of failure
15. get an animation made of the chambering process for classes
16. work on some video for classes
17. art: it still loves you. maybe you should ask it out for coffee?
18. be a better daughter
19. be a better sister
20. be a better niece
22. empty out basement room for workroom
23. finish kitchen
24. start bathroom
25. fix attic access
26. spend more time with friends. make new ones if the old ones won't comply.
28. find a better job that makes you happy and engages you positively
29. if you can't do 28, find a job that's not stressful and lets you focus on better stuff
30. fix flooding basement
31.trim front bushes. a lot.
32. work on your own business more
33. make business cards & a website for your business
34. research insurance
35. start writing articles for your business
36. let yourself go and be the person you want to be
37. spend more time outside
38. walk the dogs more
39. quit that shitty job and work through your fear
"If you would like to have your heart broken, just come out here. This is the dust-storm country. It is the saddest land I have ever seen."
~ Ernie Pyle, a roving reporter in Kansas, just north of the Oklahoma border, June, 1936.
"Let me tell you how it was -- I don't care who describes that to you, nobody can tell it any worse than what it was. No one exaggerates it. There was no way to for it to be exaggerated. It was that bad."
~ Don Wells, Dust Bowl survivor.
"When you're down, they'll push you down, fella. So you'd better watch out. They'll push you down and down and down."
~ Cal Crabill, Dust Bowl survivor
"It is good to remember that the laws of the universe recognize no favorites and cherish no hostility or small vindictiveness; that before sun and rain, stormy winds, or summer's kind beneficence, we all stand upon one common level."
"It's hard being close to people you work with. It's always hard. You've got to be patient with people who drive you crazy. I find that good relationships sometimes depend...on what you're willing to overlook."
What are the three things for which you are most thankful?
1. Born in the US. Seriously. This is a country where you can constantly re-invent your life. You can go to school at any age, you can change your mind, your career, yourself, your location, you can fail and get another chance--this is a place where you don't have to get locked-in to a trade, a school, a belief. In so many other countries, if you don't have your act together at the right time--too bad. As a chronically late-bloomer, I'm thankful to live in a country where I can bloom as late as I want, and it doesn't prevent me from blooming. Sure--there are drawbacks (to late-blooming and other things) but overall, this is a remarkable place to live.
Other than your parents, who has been the most influential person in your life and why?
George Lucas because he made Star Wars and that movie saved my life. It's really the movie/characters themselves and that fantasy world that were influential. But it came from George, so I have to claim him as most influential.
What is the most important quality that you are looking for in another person?
There isn't only one. But a few off the top are:
- fidelity - curiosity - optimism - humor
Other than your appearance, what is the first thing that people notice about you?
I have no idea what people 1st notice about me.
What is the one thing that people don’t notice about you right away that you wish they would?
I am more sensitive than I seem--or at least, this is the conclusion I draw from various interactions. I think I register as pretty unflappable--and while true to a degree, I've been accused of not feeling enough and that's not true. I am private--and this seems to be misunderstood for insensitivity which has lead to people being nastier or more provoking than necessary. My feelings are in fact easily hurt and slow to heal--but I'm protective of them, and don't let it all hang out.
How do you typically spend your leisure time?
I like to do my own thing, or not do anything--and in either case, it's great to not be hassled.
What are five things that you “can’t live without?”
1. well, crap, these days its the Internet
The four things your friends say about you are what?
I don't know what my friends say about me. I'm sorry not to sound self-reflective, but I have no idea how I come across to others. I think my insecurities about how I may seem would overshadow how I actually am--and I have no idea what an honest answer would be that wouldn't be more about narcissism/wishful thinking than true assessment.
What are your best life-skills?
- humor in crisis - big-picture thinking - detailed oriented - ability and desire to learn - adaptability: self and others - curiosity about the future